told you i'd post again...

my tummy hurts. this would be due to today's diet of pure sugar. no, seriously. almost literally. this will be another learning experience. either proper food or nothing tomorrow. better be the former.

why did i just start crying when reading Von's blog? perhaps i'm attaching too much mope to everything she writes. then again, 'i took a harsh look at myself and hated what i saw' is kinda... well, if it wasn't meant to be mopey, it's very easily misinterpreted. poor Vonnie.

Von, if you're reading this, i'm probably just far too tired and have read too much depressing fanfiction or something. i'm not worrying... yet :P. only wondering. it's a fine line between them though...

i'm going to miss everyone more than i can imagine this year. as it was, last year, i kept 'seeing' Rads around school, and as for Kita... the boarding house felt empty. there's no other way to describe it. Boz was a wonderful friend, but... a lot of lonely moping occurred nonetheless. and i mean a lot. and i had Boz and Pri and Von and Jamsin and everyone there in the library every day.

so what the hell am i going to do without you guys there every day? i need you people. i don't need (much) sleep, i don't need (hardly any) food, but i do need you.

on that topic, thank you so much for always being there for me, for being more like my mum than my mum (sometimes) and reminding me not to accidentally kill myself through pure laziness or caffeine abuse :P

i was meant to make a speech at my party. i couldn't make a proper one, because if i'd done you guys justice, i would've upset my mum, who already resents the fact that i care so much about peeps and apparently, according to her, not so much about family. but that's another story to be explained at another time.

i should go to bed. i've already broken one of the blog resolutions i made an hour ago about putting spills or whatevs in posts. and i have work tomorrow. fuuuuun :P

byebyes :) love clairesie