hellooo

(and this one's from now)

no matter what she says, i still can't help but feel guilty about spilling to someone who has 'RIP' in their msn name...

but it's ok, now. i think. talking was good, anyway... made clairesie much less upset, anyway. how selfish of clairesie.

meepmeepmeep

i have a 'just eat, loser' sign on my desk now :P
(cos that really was kinda getting out of hand...)
and i'm going to do some work tonight
and i'm going to go to all my lectures unless i'm actually DOING something else that's productive, not just bumming and like '..nah... can't be stuffed...' or like 'i'll ... study... here... instead...'
and i'm going to socialise. at least a little bit. instead of bumming around alone and then moping about it.
and i'm going to put up a sign saying the nice stuff she told me to make me confident about socialising, too. i don't care if she made it up. maybe if i teach myself it, i'll become it. *convinces self...*
*makes sign, thinks 'yeah, right, if only...'*
*worries that if clairesie actually believed that, she would be most dreadfully conceited...*
hehehe oh well.

PRIYAM GET BACK HERE
(sorry, have been posting that everywhere, regardless of whether pri's likely to read it or not lol)
:P

must make her cookies! dearohdear! but when?
and mum's going to kill me if i decide to stay overnight at bori's. but if i don't, i'll only get to stay there for like an hour, considering the time the bus gets to canberra and the time i would need to take a taxi to get home by midnight :( dilemmas, dilemmas... spontaneous painful death or hardly ever seeing pri again... ARGH

maybe with further negotiations mum'll see my point of view...
fat chance. she knows i want to see pri. she just doesn't care because she wants to see me, and i always spend heaps of time with friends whenever i go home, and she's annoyed at me for that. she thinks i care about them more than i care about her. which isn't true. it really isn't.

ah well. we'll see how things go.