*tired*

didn't get youthallowance, which sucks

told mum, she was like 'hmm... meh, didn't expect to get it anyway'

told dad, he was like 'hmm... meh, didn't expect to get it anyway'

asked him if it, like, meant anything, like regarding where i could afford to live next semester, and he was like... it doesn't necessarily mean anything in particular at the moment, in the longer term probably, but for now not really...

(which is completely different to what i'd heard he'd said to mum about how i should apply to anu cos i can't afford to live here without the support)

and... that's good, right, but always always always someone's saying something like 'we can't afford to live past the end of next week' (exaggeration) or whatever, and then whatever it is NEVER happens, but i'm still always stressing about whether i have to move back or whatever for financial reasons, or when i was at school it was whether i'd have to change school (not so much in senior, cos i never spoke to my parents then hehe) and they were talking about my brother changing school cos his is ridiculously expensive, and that was bad cos he's changed school so much etc... but i'm pretty sure that's not going to happen, either.

i just wish they'd either say something when it was actually going to happen, or not say it at all. that's all.

and yes, i ate today. a large skim latte with cinnamon, a carrot & avocado sushi roll, and a little bread thing. and i was about to say i was going to eat dinner, but that sounds like a lot, put like that...
(ohshutupclairegoeatsaladfoooooool)
(sorry von)
(*goes to dinner*)