silly silly shut up claire

ok so that last post was actually pretty arrogant. 'i've read all this stuff on the internet about all these people so clearly i must be able to do something that takes years to get a degree in'. mmhmm.

really, my whole attitude is arrogance. 'just because no-one else in the world can do it doesn't mean i can't...' and then having expectations of myself to match, which inevitably results in, well, a feeling of failure, funnily enough, when i too fail to accomplish the impossible.

silly clairesie. 'stop being arrogant and stuck-up', she must say, when she notices that she would never expect anyone else to do what she expects of herself. actually, it should work. 'arrogant' and 'uncaring' are the two adjectives that make clairesie cringe and mope most. she will avoid doing things that might be considered so.

somuchworksomuchworksomuchworkARGH. next week, i am actually going to die. please don't be surprised if i do. i'm really sorry, but i am actually pretty sure that i'll manage to either make myself horribly sick or fail a course, some time in wk 11. most likely both, cos i'll get sick and still try to do stuff. that'll be fun. calculustest databaseassignment computingoral (i know, wtf..?) computingtute discretemathstest computingassignment and i bet there's more.

we have this HORRIBLE computing assignment that lasts for like 4 weeks, like there's a part due every friday till the end of term. WTF WHO CAME UP WITH THAT ARE THEY TRYING TO KILL US ahem.

and my tummy hurts :( quite a bit but not as much as last friday. that's weird... this time last week, i was in hospital... crazy. probably dehydration. or chocolate withdrawal symptoms, since i've been eating it constantly till today.